I touch the fire and it freezes me.
I look into it and it's black.
Why can't I feel?
My skin should crack and peel.
I want the fire back.


Wednesday, December 29, 2004
"
This Fucking Sucks
"

WOW.. this has been the worst Christmas vacation in years.. everything is going wrong.  There's this whole ordeal with me and Kate going on, and there's just some other things that aren't completely resolved.  I really don't feel like going back to school, but at the same time being at home sucks too because I have like no social interaction except my annoying cousin that came home for the holiday.  I'm sitting here in the dark listening to the PD2 and I'm not really paying attention.

Ooooohhhh, I got the Buffy S6 DVD for Christmas! I was so happy. :D I've watched all six discs already, and I have to say that I love the musical episode, "Once More, With Feeling".  In fact, the words at the top of the page (the fire song lyrics) come from that episode.

Grrr.. it's so hot in here right now.. I hate this god damn heat.  I feel like I need to swim or something. Anyway, I hope that everyone had a safe and happy Christmas, and I'm ready to go back to school.  I actually miss Algebra 2. :P  When we go back to school, though, we have to keep filling out job applications for PYF even though it's the most annoying thing in the world. Mr. Zeigler is so fuckin annoying.. I wish someone would just drive a drill through his head.. and as our going on vacation gift in his class (PYF), we played Trivia Pursuit! LOL! WTF is so fun about that? :( And then in FHSS, though, it was much worse b/c we had to watch "A Christmas Story" on DVD and do these 'guess-the-x-mas-carol' papers.. It was so dumb. But Mr. Burrows is like the most boring and monotone person in the world... he really needs to liven up FHSS a little bit. The last fun thing we did was a project about Native Americans, and even then my group only did a Power Point Presentation on the Blackfoot indians, which wasn't that fun at all. I love Biology, though, it's SO the best class this year! I love learning about Genetics, and how living things work. Shikellamyeese is still so much fun to do and say! :D Except now, we have to keep these gay notebooks and do a lot more vocab and drawings about plant and stem and root functions.. it's so stupid. :( All the fun crap is gone.. no more microscope or genetics or anything fun. Oh well. Anyway, I'm gonna go b/c I don't really have anything else to say. Bye all!

Espero teneís una Navidad buena y segura y feliz. Tambien, teneís un año bueno y prospero. Hasta luego! Chao!

Josh burned at 02:09 am
Burn in Hell  




Wednesday, December 15, 2004
"
Beliefs and Shiz...
"

Well I don't really have anything special to talk about today, so I thought I'd just explain some of my beliefs and some foundations I support for you all who don't know me all too well. My close friends probably know most of these already, but just for the people who don't. Here's 10 things that I believe:

1) My religion, technically, is Atheism. Although I consider myself Areligious (that is, having no religion) I suppose I could be considered an Atheist. I don't believe in God or anything Christian, despite the many people that preach to me about it. For all of you that are sitting here reading this and screaming, "What?! How can you NOT believe in God?!" There's a few reasons I don't. For one, I don't believe in anything the Christian religion teaches. I support gay marriage, unlike the bible agrees with. I don't see how God can be considered so helpless by "sending his only begotten son to die on the cross". Wouldn't a more selfless act be to have your own life taken? Duh. I believe that the bible was written by some guy who was bored one day and decided to get creative.

2) I support gay marriage, whether anyone likes it or not. I believe that everyone is entitled to be with whomever they choose, and homosexuals should be given the same rights as heterosexuals. The time that we're living in feels like racism all over again, but discrimination of gays. What is the big deal? Why should gays have to hide their identities to get respect in this world?

3) I support abortion. I believe that it is a woman's right to choose whether she should have to carry her baby to term or not. No matter the circumstances, even if they were planning on having the baby in the first place, changing circumstances come into play. Why should rape victims that are impregnated by their rapist have to carry a child that is the result of a traumatic incident? Many of you anti-abortionists say "they should at least carry it to term and then give it up for adoption". Why should they put themselves through that all to give the baby up in the end? Others may say "well the child they 'murder' could have grown up to cure cancer or something". Well, 'what ifs' don't exactly work for arguements in today's society, and while I believe that everyone should be given the opprotunity to life, I don't believe that women should have to carry the burden of something they didn't sign up for, or even did sign up for but have changed their minds due to changing circumstances.

4) I support stem-cell research. While it does involve the killing of live embryos, the research could lead to so many medical advancements in the near future. Think about this: if you were a parapalegic or a quadripalegic or if someone you loved were, wouldn't you want them/yourself to be able to have the medical treatment you so rightly deserve? Could you imagine never being able to move any of your body again?

5) I support the ' Live Strong ' foundation. I believe that all cancer research should be given the proper funds to extend the research opprotunities that will cure millions of people in the future. Huge amounts of people are dying from various cancers each year, and a cure is out there.. we, as humans, have the responsibility of being dedicated enough to find it. Although there are treatments for some cancers such as chemotherapy or radiation, most come with very drastic side effects and are not pleasant.

6) I am against the war in Iraq. First of all, if you know me at all, you know that I am hardcore against Bush. First of all, the only reason we went to war was because Bush wanted to avenge his daddy because Hussein tried to kill Bush Sr. There were, in fact, no Weapons of Mass Destruction according to the official inspection report given in 2001. The reason that "there may be weapons of mass destruction in Iraq" was given by Bush when he declared war, even though it was proved that that was a wrong assumption. Sure, it is now a very good thing that Saddam is no longer in power nor any longer a threat, but does that mean that we should go around to all the third-world countries and the countries with awful governments and wage war on them all? That is hardly the way to do things.

7) I am against suicide. While I can understand that suicide may be the only and final exit for many people, that does not mean that I am in support of people killing themselves right and left. The same goes for self-mutilation and self-cutting. I believe that a lot of teenagers do the two things for attention among their peers, while some are serious about it. In my opinion, it's not a good thing to kill yourself, but I also believe that suicide should not be against the law. Most teenagers do think about suicide at one time or another, although most do not attempt or go through with it. Most anyone who cuts their upper arm or wrists horizontally are not serious about comitting suicide, and are doing it instead as a relief for emotional pain. Most know that cutting your wrist horizontally is not enough to kill you quickly, but on the other hand some may not. Anyway, back to the point. Suicide is a controversial topic for me to discuss, for the main reason that I don't know exactly where I stand on it.

8) I'm neutral for the death penalty. I'm against it because of the fact that vital errors have happened in the past, and say if someone is executed and then twenty years later new evidence shows up. Is the family of that person given an "I'm Sorry" later or something? I mean how do you justify killing the wrong person? On the other hand, if somebody did something to somebody I loved, I would personally want to kill them myself. So, in conclusion, I don't know where I stand on the subject.

9) I am for Euthanasia. I believe that anyone who is suffering a great deal of pain and requests to be euthanized by their doctor, nurse, or whoever, should be able to have it done without the person who does it going to prison for life on a conviction of murder. I mean, if I were suffering from Leukemia or something that is back for like the fourth time, I would like someone to just inject me with potassium chloride and make my death painless and put me out of the misery I was in. Wouldn't you?

10) Finally, I am against racism and discrimination. It disguists me the way I see humans treating other humans. I've heard people saying that other races aren't even of the human species, or that they are inferior to them. Why can't everyone just get along? Why should anyone have different views on a person because of their skin color or ethnic background? It is ridiculous, and disguisting. I'm also against the use of slang words that imply racial slurs and discrimination. I hope that one day the world will have rid itself of discrimination, but if not let all of the racists and discriminators burn for all I care.

Anyway, I'm going to ask that if you just read all of these things on my perspectives of certain things, that you comment on this entry and agree/disagree with my opinions. Feel free to put your explanations, and perhaps we can have an agruement or something.

Pero, necesito hacer mi tarea. Adios y hasta mañana donde escribo en aquí otra vez.

Josh burned at 08:26 pm
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
"
Ice, Skikellamyeese, Bob-Sledding, and Self-Prostate Examination!
"

LMFAO! If you're reading this now, my evil plan has worked: I knew that by creating a completely odd title that all you idiots (that would be you) would read this right away! Congratualtions, idiot! :D

Anyway... let's see. First, let me say how sorry I am for not writing in here since June, it's just that I never seemed to feel like updating it. Well, High School started in September, and everything's been going great so far. So, without further ado, let me explain the ice. We were in biology last week and we had a sub. We really didn't have to do all that much, so me, Caiti, and Kate formed a little group of desks type-thinger. Anyway, we started talking about bob-sledding. I had no idea how bob-sledding worked, or what it involved. Then I said "Mush!" being the idiot I was, and was clearly mixing up sports. BTW, we got into all of this by starting to talk about Kate's sister's Jamaicain boyfriend. So, then we started to talk about ice-skating rinks. They were saying how they made their own ice, and I didn't know that. :P So I said, "What is their a recipe for ice or something? How do you MAKE ice?!" LMFAO! That was a definite blonde moment on my part! I mean I do know how to make ice, it's just that I was sorta being very very stupid at the moment. So, for all of you cooks out there, you should forever remember that the recipe for ice is "A dash of water + 32 degrees F. Directions: Let ice cool in freezer or some type of freezing element until solid. Note: Ice is solidified water." LOL!!!!

Onto the self-prostate examination. Kate was talking about giving prostate examinations in social stuides, something they had talked about in Health. Anyway, she said how some guy said that it was gross to have that done. I said, "Well would they rather do it or would they rather the doctor do it." Kate burst out laughing histerically! She said, "You can't give yourself a prostate examination!" and I said "Yes you can! If you really want to you can!" So we shall forever remember the days of self-prostate examination.

Onto the newly-famous SHIKELLAMYEESE language! What the fuck, you say? LOL. Shik-eese (as I will call it) was invented by our Bio 1 teacher, Mr. Blue. We are using the system of binomial nomenclature to name the things we are classifying. We add ' -is ' to the genus name, and ' -us ' to the species name to make it look fancy. For example, if we classify H2O as a non-living organism, and then as a liquid, we would write " nonlivingis liquidus ' Get it? LMAO. :D Anyway, I brought up the point to Kate that what if we were classifying classroom objects, and we had a yardstick and a ruler, and two writing utencils. Let's say we classify the writing utencils into pen and pencil, and the yardstick and ruler into large and small. We could, in turn, end up with " penis largus " or " penis smallus ". LOL.

Anyway, that's pretty much all I have to write for now, but remember to check back here everyday, and feel free to comment with the link directly below this entry (right now it is "Commit Suicide". The "X people took their life" refers to the amount of people who have commented. Remember, also, to visit Kate's blog each day (link to the right)!

Chao, para ahora!

Josh burned at 07:23 pm
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
"
Racial Slurs and Moving Blurs
"

Sorry I haven't blogged in a long time, just been a lot of stuff going on. I didn't get on the honor roll for the fourth marking period of eighth grade, which really sucked. I stole me and my sisters report cards from the mail and hid them after opening mine. I didn't say anything about it for two days cause I thought my mom would get all homicidal. Finally, last Thursday, she tried to buy me bunches of shiz and I wouldn't let her. She finally cornered me and demanded to know what was wrong. I told her and she was ok with it.

Onto another subject. We had to move Sunday and it really sucked to begin with, but I think I'm finally beginning to be ok with it. I'll survive. Summer's been sucking so far. We haven't even been out of school for a month and it feels like forever. I'm goin to High School in September, so kind of psyched about that. Band rehearsals start in two weeks, which sucks... but at least I'll have something to do.

Anyway, today my mom saw that the computer mouse-scroller was sticking and asked what was up. She said that I "nigger-rigged" it which really ticked me off. I mean anyone who knows me knows that I'm hardcore against racism and discrimination, along with bunches of other things. She says that I "talk like a black man" when I write.. she's really getting on my nerves. Another thing she has against me is my disbelief in "God". She thinks it's just so inhumane that I don't believe in "God", but she needs to just grow up and get over it.

Back to summer. It's been a sort of lagging vacation. I've been watching lots of Judging Amy lately. :P Since I wanted to become a lawyer and all. Now I find that I'm either watching Strong Medicine or ER at all waking hours.. so I'm thinking I might practice medicine for a career.

I've been pulling a lot of all-nighters lately, and I wasn't planning on it last night but then "Psycho IV: The Beginning" came on TNT and I <i>had</I> to watch it. :P It's not 9:23am and I'm still up.. gonna go to bed soon, but first I have to get off the computer. :P Night, and I'll hopefully post back later. ;)


Josh burned at 09:23 am
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
"
Whatever..
"

Hey,

So, I was reading Mari's blog and came across this survey which I just had to fill out. Anywhoo, here it is:

[001] Your gender: Male.
[002] Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
[003] Single?: Unfortunately.
[004] Want to be?: No.
[005] Your birthday: January 5, 1990.
[006] Age you act: I act way too old for my age.
[007] Age you wish you were: 17
[008] Your height: 6'1"
[009] The color of your eyes: Brown
[010] Happy with it?: No, wish I had blue eyes.
[011] The color of your hair: Dark Brown
[012] Happy with it?: Yea.
[013] Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
[014] Your living arrangement?: Mom, sister and brother.
[015] Your family: Mom, Dad, Stepmom, Sister, Brother.
[016] What's your job?: Nope.
[017] Piercings?: Nope
[018] Tattoos?: Nope
[019] Obsessions?: Computers, Internet, Web & Graphic Design, Spanish & Latin, DVD's, Music.
[020] Do you speak another language?: Three year Spanish student.
[021] Have a favorite quote?: "Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die today."
[023] Sports?: Not really.

Deep Thoughts about life and you in it:

[001] Do you live in the moment?: Not really.
[002] Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Eh.. not really.. people annoy me.
[003] Do you have any secrets?: Plenty.
[004] Do you hate yourself?: On occasion.
[005] Do you like your handwriting?: No
[006] Do you have any bad habits?: Yeah
[007] What is the compliment you get most from people?: Uh.. I'll have to get back to you on that.
[008] If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called?: Ego Maniac.
[009] What's your biggest fear?: My mom dying.
[010] Can you sing: About as good as my left foot.
[011] Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Why, should I?
[012] Are you a loner?: Nah..
[013] If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably not.
[015] Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yup
[016] Are you passive or aggressive?: Aggressive
[017] Have you got a question?: Yeah... wha?
[018] What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Strength.. probably.. um.. high intelligence [according to my mother ]. Weakness.. I get annoyed too easily.
[019] If you could change one thing about yourself?: My hair.
[020] There are three wells: love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Love
[021] How do you vent?: Do nothing and bask in the brilliance of the rock called my life.
[022] Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yea
[023] Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Plenty of crap.
[024] Do you think life has been good so far?: Sorta
[025] What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: You don't know how good something is until it's gone.
[026] What do you like the most about your body?: Uhh...?
[027] And least?: My hair.
[028] Do you think you are good looking?: Far from it.
[029] Are you confident?: Yes
[030] What is the fictional character you're most like?: Not the slightest clue.
[031] Do people know how you feel?: No.
[032] Are you perceived wrongly?: Yea

Do You...:

[001] Smoke?: No
[002] Do drugs?: No
[003] Read the newspaper?: No
[004] Pray?: No
[005] Go to church?: No
[006] Talk to strangers who IM you?: No
[007] Sleep with stuffed animals?: No
[008] Take walks in the rain?: No
[009] Talk to people even though you hate them?: No
[010] Drive?: No
[011] Like to drive fast?: No

Have You Ever...:

[001] Liked your voice?: Not really
[002] Hurt yourself?: Not purposely.
[003] Been out of the country?: No
[004] Eaten something that made other people sick?: No
[005] Burped?: Yes
[006] Been unfaithful?: Yes
[007] Been in love?: No
[008] Done drugs?: Nothing big, but yes..
[009] Gone skinny dipping?: Why do you want to know?
[010] Had a surgery?: No
[011] Ran away from home?: No
[012] Played strip poker?: No
[013] Gotten beaten up?: No
[014] Been picked on?: Yes
[015] Been on stage?: Yes
[016] Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: No
[017] Thought about suicide?: Yes
[018] Pulled an all-nighter?: Yes
[019] If yes, what is your record?: Probably a day and a half.
[020] Gone one day without food?: No
[021] Talked on the phone all night?: No
[022] Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Not in a bed.. on a bench, though.
[023] Slept all day?: No
[024] Killed someone?: If I killed someone, why would I admit it in front of the enter cyber world?
[025] Made out with a stranger?: No
[026] Had sex with a stranger?: No
[027] Thought you're going crazy?: Yes
[028] Kissed the same sex?: No
[029] Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No
[030] Been betrayed?: No
[031] Had a dream that came true?: My dreams are too weird.
[032] Broken the law?: Yes
[033] Met a famous person?: No
[034] Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yeah.. umm.. accident.
[035] Stolen anything?: Not really..
[036] Been on radio/TV.?: No
[037] Been in a mosh-pit?: No
[038] Had a nervous breakdown?: Not yet.
[039] Considered religious vocation?: No
[040] Been criticized about your sexual performance?: What sexual performance?
[041] Bungee jumped?: No
[042] Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes

Clothes and other fashion:

[001] Shoe brand?: Like I care what brand the crap on my feet is..
[002] Brand of clothing?: Uhh..?
[003] Cologne/perfume?: Anything that smells good and doesn't knock people out when they take a whiff.
[004] What are you normally wearing to school/work?: T shirt and khackis.
[005] Wear hats?: Not often..
[006] Judge other people by their clothing?: Not really...
[007] Wear make-up?: No..
[008] Favorite place to shop?: Shopping is annoying.. too many people around.
[009] Favorite article of clothing?: Socks?
[010] Are you trendy?: Not really..
[011] Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: No

Beliefs:

[001] Believe in life on other planets?: Yeah..
[002] Miracles?: Probably if I saw one..
[003] Astrology?: I read my horiscope, doesn't really ever follow my life so.. not really.
[004] Magic?: Magick..
[005] God?: No
[006] Satan?: No
[007] Santa?: Of course!
[008] Ghosts?: Yes
[009] Luck?: Bad luck.
[010] Love at first sight?: No
[011] Yin and Yang?: Never really thought about it..
[012] Witches?: Not the Charmed kind. ;)
[013] Easter bunny?: Refer to #007. ;)
[014] Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Once in a great while.. sure.. why not?
[015] Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No
[016] Do you wish on stars?: No

Love, and all that jazz:

[001] Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: Should I have?
[002] Do you remember your first love?: Never really been in "love"..
[003] Still love him/her?: What are you stalking me?
[004] Do you consider love a mistake?: Not really..
[005] What do you find romantic?: Rain, air, and uh..
[006] Turn-on?: Open-minds, independence..
[007] Turn-off?: Men , I'm-too-stuck-on-myself attitudes.
[008] Do you base your judgment on looks alone?: No
[009] If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Awkward..?
[010] Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Knowing them
[011] Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: No
[012] Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: *shrug*
[013] Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Probably not..
[014] What is best about the opposite sex?: Am I allowed to say that here? :elol:
[015] What's the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Uh..
[016] What's the last present someone gave you?: Money?
[017] Do you consider your significant other hot?: Who is this significant other you made for me?
[018] What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: Stare at them covertly.. (is that possible? )

Who Was The Last Person...:

[001] That haunted you?: Don't think anyone has haunted me lately.
[002] You wanted to kill?: Too many to name.
[003] That you laughed at?: My mom
[004] That laughed at you?: My sister
[005] That turned you on?: Why should I tell you?
[006] You went shopping with?: My mom
[007] That broke your heart?: No one
[008] To disappoint you?: No one
[009] To make you cry?: No one
[010] To brighten up your day?: Umm..
[011] That you thought about?: No comment
[012] You saw a movie with?: Wow.. last movie I saw was Along Came Polly in like February . With my cousin and sister, though..
[013] You talked to on the phone?: Hannah
[014] You talked to through IM?: Chris
[015] You saw?: My mom
[016] You lost?: Death? My grandma and aunt.
[017] You thought was completely insane?: My sister
[018] You wanted to be?: Don't really want to "be" anyone else.
[019] You told off?: Hannah
[020] You trusted?: Kate
[021] You turned down?: No comment.

When Was The Last Time You:

[001] Smiled?: Today
[002] Laughed?: A few minutes ago.
[003] Cried?: Probably weeks ago, sometime..
[004] Bought something?: A few hours ago.
[005] Danced?: February
[006] Were sarcastic?: A few minutes ago.
[007] Hugged someone?: Thursday
[008] Talked to an ex?: Never
[009] Watched your fave movie?: Weeks ago
[010] Had a nightmare?: Wow.. months ago..
[011] Talked on the phone?: Yesterday
[012] Listened to the radio?: Earlier today
[013] Watched TV?: An hour ago.
[014] Went out?: A few hours ago.
[015] Helped someone?: Yesterday
[016] Were mean?: A few days ago..
[017] Sang?: I don't sing.
[018] Saw a movie in a theatre?: February
[019] Said "I love you"?: Yesterday.. to my mom.
[020] Missed someone?: Today
[021] Fought with a family member?: A couple minutes ago.
[022] Fought with a friend?: LOL! A few days ago.
[023] Had a serious conversation?: Today
[024] Got drunk?: Never
[025] Had sex?: Never
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK.
(X) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR.
(X) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN.
(X) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI.
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE.
(X) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC.
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED.
(X) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED.
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED.
(X) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT.
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME.
(_) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE.
(X) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY).
(X) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING.
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF.
(X) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX.
(X) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED.
(X) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER.
(X) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB.
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE.
(X) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE.
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND.
(X) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(X) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS.
(X) I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE.
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL.
(X) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER.
(X) I NEVER SAW A VAGINA IN PERSON.
(X) I NEVER HAD CYBER SEX.
(X) I NEVER FELL IN LOVE OVER THE INTERNET.


If you could go anywhere in the world where to? Spain
What would you do with 100 dollars? I'd lose it before I could spend it.
If you could meet any famous person who? Holly Marie Combs
If you could marry anyone in the world who? Her
What means the most to you? (person, animal, plant, action): My mom and friends.
Do you read often? Kind of.
Do you like your life? Didn't you ask that earlier?
If not why don't you change it?
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? College
If you could live in any country where? Spain
Do you consider yourself submissive or dominate? Dominate
What has been the biggest change in your life? My mom getting sick.
If you died right now, what would you wish you had done? Fell in love, found a cure for Pseudotumor Cerebri.
Do you want children? If so how many? Yes.. probably just one or two..
What would you name those children? Seth & Gabrielle.
Where are you from? Same old place I live now.
Where do you wish you were from? Here.
Would you sacrifice yourself for someone you love? Yes
Do you own a sex toy? No
How would you kill yourself if you had to? Probably something very messy.. Several slashes, perhaps?
Do you have a safety word? No
Do you know what a safety word is for? So you don't get abducted?
Who do you lie to the most? No one in particular.
Ever seriously considered having sex for money? No
Someone ever spread a rumor about you being slutty? Not that I know of.
Would you sell a kidney on the black market to keep from getting your dvd collection taken away by the IRS? That is the most retarded question on this survery so far.
Have you ever worn a thong? No
Ever tried cross dressing? If so did you like it? No
Would you do nude modeling for upwards of $500,000 per picture? Probably.
Would you ever go on a reality tv show? If so which one? Probably, Road Rules.
What is your life's ambition? To graduate from law school.
Your greatest talent (self proclaimed)? Umm..?
Who are you most likely to stalk (famous or not)? No one that comes to mind.
Do you play a musical instrument? Trumpet
Ever tried online dating? No
Ever Cybered? Did you enjoy it? No, didn't you ask that earlier?
Would you marry someone to give them a green card? No
Do you consider premarital sex evil? No
Number of... :x: Piercings: 0
:x: Tattoos: 0
:x: Height: Stop repeating everything. You asked that earlier, damnit!
:x: Shoe size = Dunno... 9 or 10, probably.
:x: Hair color: Argg!!!
:x: Siblings: 3

Last...

:x: Movie you rented: None
:x: Song you listened to: "Everything I do (I do for you)"
:x: Song that was stuck in your head: Concrete Angel
:x: Cd you bought: "The Reason" - Hoobastank
:x: Cd you listened to: ^^
:x: Person you've called: Hannah
:x: Person that's called you: Hannah
:x: Tv show you've watched: 1-800 Missing
:x: Person you were thinking of: No one lately.

Do...

:x: You have a crush on someone: Yeah
:x: You wish you could live somewhere else: Yeah
:x: You think about suicide: Not lately
:x: You believe in online dating: No
:x: Others find you attractive: Doubt it
:x: You want more piercings: No
:x: You drink: No
:x: You do drugs: no
:x: You smoke: no
:x: You like cleaning: No
:x: You like roller coasters: Yes
:x: You write in cursive or print: Print

For Or Against...

:x: Long distance relationships: Against
:x: Using someone: Against
:x: Suicide: Against
:x: Killing people: Against
:x: Teenage smoking: Against
:x: Doing drugs: Against
:x: Driving drunk: It's drunk driving, and against. ;)
:x: Gay/lesbian relationships: Let everyone have their own sexuality.
:x: Soap operas: Against

Favorite...

:x: Food: Lasagna, Hoagies.
:x: Song: "Truly, Madly, Deeply."
:x: Thing to do: Net, Hang out..
:x: Thing to talk about: Politics, History
:x: Sports: None..
:x: Drinks: Water, Iced Tea.
:x: Clothes: Whatever..
:x: Movies: Horror, Drama.
:x: Singers: No one in particular.
:x: Holiday: Christmas

Have You...
:x: Ever cried over a girl: No
:x: Ever cried over a boy: No
:x: Ever lied to someone: Yeah
:x: Ever been in a fist fight: No
:x: Ever been arrested: No

What...

:x: Shampoo do you use: Why do you care?
:x: Shoes do you wear: The ones that are on my feet.
:x: Are you scared of: Death..

Number of...

:x: Of times I have been in love?: Never
:x: Of times I have had my heart broken?: Never
:x: Of hearts I have broken?: One that comes to mind.
:x: Of girls I have kissed?: 1
:x: Of boys I have kissed?: 0
:x: Of girls I've slept with?: 0
:x: Of boys I've slept with?: 0
:x: Of drugs taken illegally?: 1
:x: Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: Hannah & Kate
:x: Of people I consider my enemies?: Too many
:x: Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Wow.. umm.. don't really follow it.
:x: Of scars on my body?: Dunno, I don't count them before I go to bed at night.
:x: Of things in my past that I regret?: Don't keep records.

Favorite...

:x: Disney movie: The Lion King
:x: Word: What's wrong with you?
:x: Nickname: JJ, Joshy.
:x: Guy name: Seth
:x: Girl name: Gabrielle
:x: Eye color: Blue, Hazel
:x: Flower: Umm.. ?
:x: Piercing: ?
:x: Actor: Chad Michael Murry, John Travolta.
:x: Actress: Holly Marie Combs

Do You Think You Are...

:x: Pretty: Not really
:x: Funny: In my own twisted way.
:x: Hot: Nope
:x: Friendly: Yeah
:x: Amusing: Isn't that the same thing as being funny?
:x: Ugly: Not really..
:x: Loveable: You tell me
:x: Caring: Yeah
:x: Sweet: Yeah right.
:x: Dorky: Not really..

Sex Quiz:

If you have never had sex, just answer what you would do.
1) Are you a virgin? || Yes
2) If so why? || Because I'm 14..
3) How many sexual partners have you had? || None
4) Are you gay, straight, A-sexual, or confused? || Straight
5) Ever been caught in a sex act? || No
6) Ever done some sort of sex act in public? || No
7) Ever done some sort of sex act on film? || No

Fetishes, yes or no.

1) Medical? || no
2) Bondage? || no
3) Furries? || No
4) Animals? || No
5) Ass worship? || What is wrong with you people?
6) Feet? || No
7) Latex? || no
8) Cross dressing? || no
9) Panty hose? || no
10) Voyeur? || no
11) Exhibitionist? || no
12) Disgusting stuff? || no
13) Food? || no
14) Hair? || no
15) Breasts? || no
16) Lesbians? || no
17) Pregnant? || No.
18) Shaving? || no
19) Uniforms? || No
20) Water sports? || No
21) Strange objects? || no
22) Leather? || No
23) BDSM? || Wha?
24) Ethnic? || No.

General:

1) Ever wanted to fuck a complete stranger? || Yes
2) Ever felt the need to fuck an inanimate object? || No
3) Ever used some type of food as a sex aid? || No
4) Do you watch porn? || Not frequently
5) Had a one night stand? || No
6) Want to have a one night stand? || Sure, why not?
7) Would you ever fuck a prostitute? || No
8) Have you ever lied about your sex life? || You're a bit obsessive, eh?
9) Ever lied about the size of your breasts/dick? || I don't exactly give that info out to everyone.
10) Have you or would you ever wear a costume as a turn on? || No
11) Have you ever cybered? || Stop asking that!
12) Ever wanted to cyber? || No
13) Showed some one nude pictures of you? || No
14) Preformed sex acts on a web cam? || No

Wrath

1. Who did you last get angry with? Hannah
2. What is your weapon of choice? Gun
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yes
4. How about of the same sex? Yes
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? Hannah
6. What is your pet peeve? Noises, lights, people..

Sloth

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? Homework
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 4 PM
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? Hannah
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? Slipped my mind.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? Yup
6. When was the last time you got in a good workout? lol..
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? None

Gluttony

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Umm...
2. Meat eaters? Yea
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? None
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? No
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Yep
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Spicy
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought "lunch"? No!! LMFAO!

Lust

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Why should I tell you?
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? Uhh..
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of the opposite gender during a normal conversation? Yup
4. Have you "done it"? No
5. What is your favourite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Eyes, Teeth.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? No

Greed

1. How many credit cards do you own? None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Err..
3. If you had 1 million, what would you do with it? Buy something really stupid.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Prolly
6. Have you ever stolen anything? Yeah
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 2 or 3..

Pride

1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? Uh..
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Honor Roll 11 times in a row.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Fix the country..
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Depends..
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Yup
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Prolly
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? Nothing, really..

Envy

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Err..
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? ...
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Bill Gates (at my age, though )
4. Have you ever been cheated on? Not that I know of
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Yes
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Patience?
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? Like hell.. this has been the most annoying thing that I have done in weeks!

Josh burned at 02:53 am
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004
"
And All That Jazz..
"

Bah.. dun make fun of me for my cheap titles.

Anyway, lots has happened the past two months. Lost two friends, oh well. As the layout says.. my heart will go on. lmao. Bleh.. they can just crawl in the toilet for all I care.

School's almost over, like.. 9 days or something.. but, who's counting? Lol. Anyway, for all you FGB'ers out there, I.. I.. quit! *mwuahha*. Hope y'alls can understand, though the past 17 months have been great, it was time for me to go. *sigh*.

Well.. new layout.. don't particularly know why I chose images from titanic.. bleffle. I've been reading the Enchanted Forest Chronicles lately, just finished Book #2 ("Searching For Dragons") today. If you haven't read them, well.. you should.

The Charmed season finale was on earlier this week, and.. omg.. it was so good. On June 2nd, I'm going to Dorney Park (local amusement park) with the band, and then June 3rd is my last day, so..
High school'll be starting up in September, kind wanting to go and kinda not. Four more years and I'm done, although I think I'll miss it.. What with my one friend and all.

Hoping to death that I get good grades for this last marking period, and honor roll. I swear to god if I'm not on the honor roll, I'll scream. I've been on it for the last 11 marking periods in a row (my entire MS career) and.. grr..

Anyway, I'm gonna get going now. Hoping that I start posting in this regularly, but not making any promises, so don't get y'alls hopes up.

Josh burned at 08:08 pm
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Monday, March 29, 2004
"
There's Gotta Be More To Life
"

Hey everyone!

No, I'm not dead!

Anyway.. I know it's been a very long time since I last blogged, but I have a lot to catch y'all up on.

Okay.. so

School has been fine lately, except for that teacher again. Today was the last day of the marking period, and she tried to give me a 75 (C) but I refused to let her. She has this whole bullshit grading system. Like this stupid Call of the Wild folder that we did, it takes our percentage up or down 10 whole points  Which means that it took my grade up to an 85 (B).. Anyway, she had me doing all of this shit over again and I took it all up to her and threw it at her. And then there's this group of Prep's that like to call me Gert and Frank for some reason   Anyway, I took it up to her and threw it at her and then the prep's kept sayin 'Gert' so I'm like "I wish you would all just jump into a ravine." The teacher's like "Even me?" I'm like "Of course you too."

Oh well.. anyway I got a C in Algebra which I guess I'm okay with.. I'll still be on the honor roll.. Anywhoo, here are my grades:

Algebra I - C (73.6%)
Social Studies (World History) - A (98%)
Physical Science (Physics) - A ( - )
Reading - A ( - )
Communication Arts - A (95%)
Spanish - A ( - )
Band - A ( - )

Okay, in my school the average is determined by these:

A = 4
B = 3
C = 2
D = 1
F = 0

So, mine would be 2, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4 & 4. Total of 26. Divide that by 7, you get 3.7142857142857142857142857142857.  Anyway, we need a 3.5 to get on the Honor Roll so as you can see I'm on.   

Anyway, I bought Grease on Friday and I've seen it 7 times since lol

Ok, I'm going now I'm bored..


Josh burned at 08:45 pm
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Monday, March 01, 2004
"
Total Bullshit
"

The day started out ok, at the end of the day (Period I), my Comm Arts teacher asked me to stay a few minutes because she wanted to ask me something. So I waited a few minutes, and here's a transcript that I typed based off of memory:

[Teacher] "You seem very annoyed with me lately."
[Josh] "That's because I am."
[Teacher] "And why is that? You seem explosive lately."
[Josh] "How so?"
[Teacher] "Well when you asked me to sign your schedule for Honors English, you blew up."
[Josh] "I did not."
[Teacher] "You had a fit."
[Josh] "No, that was because you told me that my grade was an 82 which it isn't."
[Teacher] "That's because you didn't give me your newspaper article and a journal entry."
[Josh] "I just gave you them last week."
[Teacher] "Yeah, and I haven't put them in the gradebook yet, I only do two grades: midterm and marking period end."
[Josh] "Well you yell at me for the stupidiest crap."
[Teacher] "Like what?"
[Josh] "Like for hitting me when someone else hit me first."
[Teacher] "Didn't you ever learn that the second person always gets caught?"
[Josh] "Well that's bull."
[Teacher] "Yea, but life's not fair."
[Josh] "Well you were saying how I was such a 'threat' to the classroom."
[Teacher] "That was a joke."
[Josh] "Well I didn't think it was really funny.."
[Teacher] "Well I'm sorry."
[Josh] "Whatever.." *walks out of the room*

^^ As you can see, I hope, that's total bullshit. All she ever does is bitch at me in that god foresaken class and then she tries to tell me it's all a joke, f*ck that!

Anyway, I'm having a REALLY nasty conversation with my cousin right now who's at my Dad's house.. We're just bitching back and forth at each other, fun fun!

Anyway, I've done C:tP stuff for the day and FGB, so I'm off to play Sims! :P

Josh burned at 08:00 pm
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Sunday, February 29, 2004
"
Hmm..
"

I couldn't think of a title, so this will work.  

Not much has changed since yesterday, I was playing Sims this morning and then my cousin downloaded bunches of objects for it, so I'm off to play again.

I can hear "Newleyweds" on MTV right now and Jess is being a bitch, like always.

Anyway, I'm off to play Sims, I'll probably be on later tonight since there's not a new Charmed on, maybe I'll even re-post.

Josh burned at 10:45 am
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
"
I Hate Everything About You
"

Confused about the title, eh? Just a new song I'm obsessing over by Three Days Grace..

Anyway, 'tis been a while since I blogged.. I've sort of been lacking lately in the Internet department. I've received some bad news about someone in my family, only those who I feel comfortable about telling would know however.

Well I just finished doing my High School Schedule, so I'm SO happy with that.. It's like Elective, Alternate, Elective, Alternate.  SO aggrevating.

Anyway everything's been just going smooth lately, except in school which's pissing me the fuck off so DAMN bad! Geez that damn teacher of mine is being a bitch again, like always but I'm just happy she actually signed my schedule for Honors English in HS.. I'm doing Freshmen Communications, Algebra 2, Honors English, Advanced Biology, Honors Social Studies, Freshmen Health, Gym, Plan Your Future, Spanish 2, Latin 1 & JRotC.  As you can see I think I'll have a pretty busy year..

Anyway, I gotta get off now I'll probably be on tomorrow, maybe even a new entry.



Josh burned at 11:07 pm
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Well, as you've probably already infered or already knew, my name's Josh. I was born on January 5, 1990, and I go to Shikellamy High School. Although I quit band over the summer, I'm still in Spanish and intend to stay there and minor in it in college. Well enough boring you. Check out the blog, and leave a comment or post in the TagBoard if you have something to say.

At The Moment                     

Layout: Fire
Time: 2:18 AM [EST]
Feeling: Fine
Wearing: "Cheer me up" shirt, blue khackis
Talking:
Kacey
Drinking: Mountain Dew
Hearing: Mary's burned CD
Eating: Nothing
Watching: Nothing
Loving: Nothing
Hating: Justin
Wanting: Buffy S7
Waiting: For nothing
Desktop: Paradise
Surfing: Nowhere

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To Do List                           
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+ Finish MP2 of High School
+ Get S1 of Charmed on DVD
+ Get Sims 2
+ Play Cranium 50 Times


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